Tuesday, April 19, 2011

My Opportunity


I can't believe this, but in about 1 month, I'll be leaving for Kenya!! It's just so amazing. The Lord has brought everything I just about need together. I'm only short $500 at this point, which is unbelievable. Thank you to everyone who has financially supported me. The only thing keeping me in school and not hoping onto a plane is finals. It's probably the only time I will ever say I'm thankful for them.
Also, I've been taking a facebook break because the Lord, through my wonderful roomie, told me I spent too much time online. And the more I thought about it, the more I realized the Lord was right. Social networking is great to keep in touch and check in on friends that live further away from me. It's also great to post pictures and stuff. I LOVE FACEBOOK. However, I was spending more time looking at pictures of people, than actually looking at those people face to face. And I've been off of it for the duration of Lent. Since being off, God has shown me a lot of ugly stuff about me. I sin too quickly, I rely on other things besides him, and I don't really believe that God has full control over my life. It's ugly, sticky sin that goops to everything around me. I fall into traps and lose control. What a distraction facebook was?! So, while I certainly miss checking in on my friends, it's been a great break.
Finals are 2 weeks away, and Easter is this coming Sunday. What a wonderful year it has been. Fall football memories with some really great people, playing music to not only encourage the team and the fans, but to play my very best for Lord. It is with a joyful sound that I bring to the field every single Saturday afternoon/evening in the fall. And what a way to end the semester by going to Arizona (free), eating a fancy dinner (free), going to malls, zoos, and other fan-filled areas (free), and playing and screaming in the biggest football game in the nation (free). WOW. It was one of the coolest trips I have ever been on, and it's a sweet payback to all the trials high school band brought me. Spring semester has been filled with a first ever hockey game, basketball games, baseball games, and all the wonderful memories in all of them. It's been filled with RUF winter conferences, fellowship groups, visits to rebuild homes for the needy, and daily learning to be thankful for the mercy and love and forgiveness, and the freedom to sin boldly from my Lord. RUF has been more than a blessing in my college life, and I'm so thankful for everyone who has been there and become my friend. What a year. My opportunities have become so endless in college. It's amazing to see how much God has changed my life.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Out of the Woods



"I wish you out of the woods
And into a picture with me
I wish you over the moon
Come out of the question and be

If this is gonna run 'round in my head
I might as well be dreaming
Run 'round in my head

I roller coaster for you
Time out of mind must be heavenly
It's all enchanted and wild
Just like my heart said it was gonna be"

- Out of the Woods, by Nickel Creek -



Tuesday, April 12, 2011

A Kid at Heart


I'm in even in Kenya yet, and the Lord is already teaching me to be patient and trust Him. My money has been coming in, and thanks to many wonderful people out there, I'm secure in that. However, now the burden that is in my heart is all the paperwork. It's just not something I enjoy doing, and I have this fear that I'm not going to get it all done in time. But even as I type this, I'm getting more peace in my heart. It is literally one month until I leave. 1 more month. And all the paperwork will get done on time. I'll put forth the effort needed, and I'll get there and serve the people and children of Kenya. This has been a dream that I just didn't even think was going to happen. So, I'm learning now, 1 month away, to be patient and let God work.

In other news, finals are in 2 weeks! HOW WEIRD. Then summer and then I'll be a junior. What a weird concept. Junior status means I know my major which means I should know what I want to do with my life. And I do. But, at the same time, I don't know if I'll have a job when I graduate college. Or where I'll live or what school I'll teach at. But hey. Junior year also means I'm a 3rd year vet in the marching band, and pretty much known the drill. Junior means I know the secret places to study where the noisy freshmen won't be. And junior means I'm finally done with core classes, and can finally appreciate, and enjoy school and my classes.

What weirds me out is just the concept of growing up in general. I feel like I'm 16 still, and yet I turn 21 this year. What...where...when did this happen? I don't know. But I know for sure that when I get to be a grandma, I'm going to act like I'm a kid. Giggly, awkward, and forever wanting to have fun.

And these girls make my life oodles and oodles of fun.